Yes. This is a “remix” of my best of 2022 video, but this one made me sad a little.
Ever feel like it’s too much? Do you feel like you’re not enough When you feel like it’s gonna take forever?
Yeah, I swear I know what it’s like To feel alone at the end of the night Maybe you don’t know it, but it gets better
It’s gonna be alright I’m never gonna leave your side It’s gonna be alright, -ight
Everybody falls down, all the way down You just gotta hold on tight You gotta get up, gotta get up Gonna make it through this time Everybody falls down, all the way down You just gotta hold on tight You gotta get up, gotta get up Gonna make it through this time
Falls by ODESZA
Is it bad to feel like crying at your own video? Probably. I’m definitely a narcissist. I’m alone in a room with feelings only I understand.
Hopefully, I can hold these feelings; they will be the one that gets me to finish my book in the end.
This video was originally intended for the 2nd channel as a companion video, but it’s too good for it…
re: it was originally a shitpost, but I’m not laughing.
This is the story of the best worst VTuber you’ve never heard of...
I haven’t been perfect. I’ve been cruel, I’ve been merciless, and I’ve been greedy. But this is all because I want to win–and because I want to succeed.
In 2021, I started all of this as joke. It was a trend, and I did not put in much thought to it. I just did it. Some of you knew me way back from when I did not have a voice, and some of you came only after I had a voice–and some of you came during the time I was part of the Trash Taste Fandom.
It’s been a long and gruelling struggle. I’ve had to cut some people off. I’ve had to sacrifice a lot of time and money, and even dignity to be where I am. But I sleep well at night, knowing that I’ve helped a handful of people grow to where they are today –whether they will thank me publicly or not, my reward lies elsewhere.
Even then I am not satisfied; I want more. I want dominance and victory.
And because of my greed, you the viewer stand to benefit and WILL HAVE MORE. As much as my subcount is pathetic by “elistist” standards, from another more positive angle, seeing and knowing that THREE-HUNDRED THOUSAND PEOPLE have viewed my content on YouTube these mere couple of years is definetely insane. To all of those who are still here. I thank you so much for your time and support.
I won’t say I don’t know what lies ahead in 2023. I do know. I know that I must strive to publish The Masked Parapriestess by 2023/24, with the money and time I have left; and with all the creative power in me; and of course, there are already so many games that are coming out soon, as well as the new bird park; as a sequel to my bird park IRL Video.
I’m upset about always being called “underrated”, but I guess it’s just my fate. My arrogance for refusing to “play the game”, “game the trend”, “play along”. And my desire to create something new–bring something new to the field. If I did play the game; this channel would only pumping out 100% Fortnite content.
So this year, I will be executing my life’s mission of 10 years at this point.
And I hope, to the 574 Subscribed and whoever the YouTube Algorithm steers to me, YOU WILL LIVE TO SEE WHAT I CAN DO FOR YOU. I have shown that I can provide a service–till I collapse.
Literally.
Minerva Marie-Sagan, Best of 2022 Speech on YouTube
On Friday, 1800hrs (GMT +8), I blacked out during my military reservist fitness refresher and had a 5-second seizure according to the on-site medic.
Blood sugar level, heart rate and oxygen was normal/healthy; I am very sure this is due to the fatigue I’ve been fighting since August. (due to Tower of Fantasy and IRL Streams being uploaded back-to-back; working/editing/uploading even on the weekends–despite trekking about 12 kilometres for each IRL).
I have been contacted by several Warrant Officers of the Army Fitness Conditioning Centre to check-up on my condition, and while I am fine for now, they have suspended my remaining 4 fitness sessions for safety reasons, until I am considered healthy.
My reservist battalion will be booking a medical review under a military doctor for me down the line to see if this an underlying health issue.
With regards to my content creation “career”, I’ve decided to forgo everything and focus on the masked-parapriestess for the greater good.
I initially wanted to pull a Ninja and try multi-streaming, but looking at the bigger picture, I doubt I’ll have the time to stream a lot to justify the $16/month fees.
So, I’ll be doing a Pewdiepie, and I’ll be retiring from Twitch and “hardcore” content creation.
–because I’ve done it all and I toofeel like:
“I don’t need to prove myself to anyone at this point.”
IRL Streams, RTX/Cosplay, streaming on release day and uploading within 48/72 hours; I have done it and you’ve watched me do it.
Twitch Partner and a monetised YouTube Channel mean nothing to me at this point if my book does not kick off; and even then, I don’t wanna lose all the time I have editing everyday, or one day growing big to the point I am forced to stream 4-8 hours a day, 5 times a week.
My last twitch stream will be this Wednesday or Thursday for Tower of Fantasy v1.5, and then depending on my schedule and health, GTA V Marathon will be streamed on my YouTube main channel on the last week of September, because I am very passionate about its growth, compared to Twitch which seems to go nowhere.
After that, the next stream will be TOF v2.0, when that will be is God knows when.
Unfortunately, this means I’ll be relinquishing ALL my mod duties(even under Mudan)–even lurking, voluntary or forcing myself to as a VIP.
Though this also means my mods will be released from their duties as well; many of us are busy anyways since post-pandemic and the return to school & beginning of university.
For Q4-2022 onwards, I will divert all time to writing my novel and working with /ruin/grande on the illustrations for the book’s music video. Same goes for Q1/Q2 of FY2023/24, because we’ll have Live2D for those 4 Characters and voice actors as per Thursday’s stream.
YouTube upload schedule will cease to exist, and I’ll upload/edit on whatever day I feel like, when it’s ready, and I probably won’t be tracking performance anymore, or announcing that I am editing it or posting it for the week. The bot(s) will do that for me; and for anyone that hits the bell button.
“I’d like to take this chance to apologize to… absolutely nobody.” –because I’ve gone above and beyond in every aspect as a “small creator” for 1 year, 4 months. I’ve got nothing left to prove on Twitch and YouTube, but a lot to prove for the bookshelves and literary agents. I gave everyone my time–put my life, my heart, body and soul on the firing line; and now, I’m taking it back. I wish I had more reach, but that has always been up to luck–and I don’t believe in luck, only hard work.
Endeavour Unto Victory.
I’ve given it my all to the point of collapse. There is nothing left to give.
An Angel of Hell, embedded to train the human rebels of Purgatory against the Kingdom of Heaven. She hides her wings and horns, and utilises their equipment. – “Minervai’El, The Clandestine.”
Celebrating 365 Days of COIN Operations against the Kingdom of Heaven.
Thank you, Officers, Mercenaries and Subcontractors of the Hellion Intelligence Agency. Now, about becoming the 1st New York Times Bestselling VTuber in the History of All Mankind…
Author’s Commentary / End of the “Throneless Trilogy (Jan’22 thru May’22)”:
The direction of this project was to serve as the origin story of Minervai’El (undercover name: Minerva Marie-Sagan), the High Commander of the Hellion Intelligence Agency, during her time as “boots on the ground” as an Angelic Advisor, during the Human Rebellion For Independence of the Second-Generation of Mankind.
This artwork was a depiction before the Flood By Heaven and before she was throat-punched by the Archangel Raphael, where she walked amongst mankind, specifically, the followers of King Adam and Queen Eve who were against being administrated and ruled by the Angels of Heaven.
They are called “The Second-Generation of Mankind or 2G-Man”. For canonical purposes, we (our current time, are the Third Generation of Mankind or 3G-Man), and the HKSF Series takes place in the V-Era or the Fourth Generation of Mankind or 4G-Man.
Directions given to artist: “An everyday future footsoldiers’ gun”
As observed, Minervai’El utilizes the equipment and uniform of the Purgatorian Armed Forces (PAF) that is relatively advanced, while keeping a low profile, not presenting her black wings. A Spinal Device to reduce back injuries when bearing heavyweight equipment, and the SPEAR-22, which stands for:
Shield
Piercing
Enhanced
Airburst
Railgun
22nd Century
The end of this “experimental story” is concluded in the previously written Outro of Minerva’s Stream, remastered by an anonymous singer, as “Throneless II”:
“An old soldier who is tired of war, but has not given up, where many have retired; and continues because she war is all she knows, but she longs to be free. Even then, her nation will not gift her her freedom so easily…”
v2.5 with piano and violin and “III” with bass line and drums are in the works for April and May, thus forming the “Throneless Trilogy” before moving on the the OP/ED for The Masked Parapriestess, aka HKSF Book-01.
Additionally, since Minerva’s Lore borrowed elements of a failed prequel, designated “Book-00A”, this project is designated “Book-00B” and solves much of the problems of the HKSF Novel Series’ old drafts being full of lore dumps and undeeded, deep-dive exposition.The “Zero” in this regard is also inspired by the themes of Ace Combat 5: The Unsung War’s Prequel, Ace Combat: Zero, The Belkan War.
“An old soldier who is tired of war, but has not given up, where many have retired; and continues because she war is all she knows, but she longs to be free. Even then, her nation will not gift her her freedom so easily…” – The Saga of Minervai’el, The Clandestine
Minerva is a Next-Generation English Indie VTuber & Aspiring Author based in Southeast Asia (ASEAN Region/Singaporean-Filipino) following the virtual Youtuber & Streamer phenomenon, with high hopes of hitting the New York Times Bestseller list with her debut novel titled:
“The Masked Parapriestess (EN)” / “Kamen no Para’Miko (JP)”.
She is the High Commander of the Hellion Intelligence Agency (HIA), which falls under the provisional command of the High Council of Hellion Home Affairs(HCHHA).
Minerva Marie-Sagan 
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